Why can’t I stick with this diet?
Why have I lost my motivation?
Why am I overeating and not even trying to maintain my lose?
I think the last question – Why am I overeating and not even trying to maintain my loss? Is the most troubling of all the questions. Again I have fallen into the trap, “Well I still have more to lose so what the heck – I might as well eat the ^*)^^.” And I have been doing just that!
No I am not over 200 again but I have gone from well under 195 (191.7) to 197.2 today, all from eating too much a saying – “I will diet tomorrow.”
I CANNOT keep doing this – my health is at stake! I have lost almost 40 pounds and though that is great, it is not enough! I have goals. I want to be able to run! I really believe that I would enjoy being a runner. The freedom, kind of like swimming, but there will be no running at this weight!
I want to be off all these meds for asthma! I will be off these meds if I get to my goal weight!
I want to borrow my Daughter’s clothes. I will be borrowing her clothes!
I can do this. Today I planned my meals. As I sit here right now I have food in my tummy and can make it til dinner. I must plan and record my food everyday!
Why would I NOT want to reach my goal? Not one calorie of the crap I have eaten through out the past 2 weeks has been that memorable, so it isn’t taste.
Part of it has been frustration – I have been feeling some frustration with everyone and I have been eating my way through it. But I believe that the food has created an even bigger need for more food in me – a vicious cycle.
It is time to knit, to enjoy my family, to achieve my goal!
*** On the knitting front – Sunday I discovered I made a mistake on the second sleeve of the Rogue hoodie– Did I mention I made a mistake on the first sleeve and had to rip back 60 rows. Anyway this time I ended up ripping back 70+ rows. I have re-knit this yarn more times than anything I have ever done. And I keep smiling and going back to it!
Promise photos of the WIP soon
